Depression.

[Marcos_Beck]

Guys.

I’m suffering from depression right now. Things lost joy, including this league. I need to fix lots of stuff, it’s all wrong right now. I need less time in the PC or phone and more time living. Some things in my life are not right.
I was using this league as a escape route but that’s not the way to do it.
I’m starting to care too much about this, and it’s not helping me at all. Specially when there are (and there will always be) people that doesn’t care as much.

I was gonna take some time, but some actions from today showed me that it’s time to step away.

CSL will always have a place in my heart and I leave while knowing the Bulls are in a good spot.

I’ll take better care of myself from now on.
If you need to hit me, I’m always available on Facebook. Good luck to you all, and keep doing what you do to make this league great.

It was a pleasure.

[hardenwithnod]

Man, as I have mentioned before, real life comes first. I hope you won't leave, just take a little break, and not log on as much. In the end this is suppose to be a fun get away, I know you are very competitive, but don't let it get into your head. Also depression sucks ass man, I HIGHLY recommend going to go see a therapist, there's no shame in getting professional help. Hell, I go to a therapist every month just to make sure my mental health checks out.

[Silogical]

That's sad news, the league isnt the same without you. Take care of you and come back when you're ready.

[Dylan]

Take care of yourself and use the necessary outlets to get past this. Hope you get your mental health right and get back here. Wishing you the best.

[WillyJakkz]

Yeah depression is a very serious subject and have suffered from it myself, make sure you get the right tools, things, and people in place to overcome it. God first and above all and get to know yourself better and what else you enjoy about you.

Before you go let's make that trade then you can peace out jk man get better

[drumr]

Take care of you and yourself first. Know if you need someone to listen to you I'm available as I'm sure others are. Hope to see you back soon!

[Rizzo]

Marcos,

I think I speak for the entireeagie when I say you’re beyond an asset to the CSL and seeing you step away is never easier. With that said, life and your health always come first and foremost. Take care of yourself and know you have 20+ other guys here willing to help you however you need.

[KW]

I totally understand the need to pull back, unplug for a while, and just focus on life. I'm basically starting to do this with the NBA right now, I'm getting too emotionally invested in it for my own good. So while I'm not detaching completely, I'm not going to get worked up over it then go on reddit and comment every night about all the shit that went wrong. It's just not healthy sometimes. I'm just gonna back off and chill for the rest of the season and see how things change.

It feels strange, since I've basically lived and breathed basketball forever but really what's the point in doing something for fun if you get worked up to the point where you don't enjoy it anymore? So yeah I completely feel you on this.

Feel free to talk to us on the forums, or group chats, or prviately if you just want to talk, need advice, whatever- we're here. I know you're one of the most liked GMs in this league and would love to see you back once you're in a better place.

[Andrewu91]

Sorry to hear that man. I'm here if you ever want to talk. Hopefully you get everything sorted out and come back.

[rh0xxy]

Damn, sorry. It's all my fault.

[Stockton12]

Damn, sorry. It's all my fault.

Really ? You sure it wasn’t after the bulls lost to the Knicks lol

I’m seriously bro take your time ..get yourself okay and remember we are here for you if you need to talk ..I know what depression is like ..

[blackice]

I'm really sad to hear this Marcos, I hope taking a step back from the league and taking time for yourself and your well being helps and if you ever want to talk don't hesitate. Goodluck.

[emplep7]

Sorry to hear man as that’s no joke. This is all supposed to be fun so once it starts becoming more than that for anyone it’s usually time to take a break and reprioritize things in life. Let us know if you need anything.

[emplep7]

Damn, sorry. It's all my fault.

Don’t think that rhoxx. Things like this are nobody’s fault.

[ozymandias]

Marcos has helped me a lot since I joined the league and I can't thank him enough.

Man, I know just how much you care about CSL and hope to have you back here as quickly as possible.

[Jestor]

Take the time you need. Team will still be here when you get back - just like the league has always done when I've needed time away.

[Raidercj]

Marcos I hope you can get yourself right. Let me know if you need anything and thanks for helping me with the league!

[Dennis]

Good luck marcos! See you back home whenever you are ready!